| London July 24th 1796 |
How shall I express my impatient anxiety at not hearing from you,
five tedious weeks have elapsed without a line to say you are well or that I still
retain a place in your remembrance—I learn continually the arrival of the Mails,
consequently am alarmed at your silence—Absence I have often heard is dangerous, were I
to judge solely by from my own feelings I should say that little was to
\be/ feared, conscious that it strengthens rather than weakens \real/ affections. Alas at this moment I feel an
aching void which only a letter from you can remove—You have frequently endeavoured to
teach me fortitude, I knew not then how much I should need it and find though I listened
to the Teacher I lost the lessons—Would you were here now I think I should be more
attentive, yet I sincerely hope never to see you again with a probability of parting I
could now say much but must suppress my thoughts—
Pray let me hear from you as often as possible, in the interim and during life Believe me / Yours Affectionately
Louisa Catherine Johnson